Here I go again....

on my own....
Well, friends, I am off to do my own thing. I am hurting some right now, but I am trying to look at this as a beginning instead of an end. Wow. It is really easy to say that, and very hard to put it into action. I have never NOT wanted to do something as badly as I do NOT want to move out of this apartment that I have been sharing with Victor, my soon to be ex-boyfriend.
BUT, I am going to pour my pain and energy into school. I will be a robot. School, school, school, school. That is what I need to focus on. I will be eating, breathing, and sleeping that thought. I will meditate on it, until at last, I have a BA in Japanese Studies from UHH (University of Hawai'i at Hilo.) Whoooo! Then it is off to Japan. Those are the ONLY things that matter right now.
But it does not take away the pain of breaking up ; ;
Wow, I have said "but" a lot. :D